When I was younger I was very insecure and was always worried about what people think. I still worry sometimes but most of the time I think, it doesn't really matter because I am who I am. Like Seus said:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
I would love to say that it was all in my head but my dad and my dad’s sisters told me I was treated different than my siblings. I was always getting sick. I was slower. One thing that I did have was health, a thin body (they worried I was too thin) which is a laugh because now I can’t loose weight. This is why I don’t push food on my daughter. I’m trying to teach her how to tell when she isn’t hungry. So far her metabolism is good and she is thin but I remind her that I was thin and not to take it for granted.
|Mom, age 47 and I, age 16 in 1978.|
I was fairly healthy even though I got sick all the time. Compare to how I am now, I was very healthy. I didn’t have aches and pains, I could walk fast (but not run fast). I was agile even though I was clumsy and uncoordinated. Now I’m clumsy again because of my fibro.
|Natalie, age 9 and I age 45.|
I look at pictures of me now and think..what happened? The one thing that is better, and this is an important thing, I’m much happier and more secure. I was thin in high school but always insecure.
|Katharine, age 22 in 1984 in Palos Verdes, California over looking the Pacific Ocean.|
|Samohi's 30th Reunion|
I compliment Natalie but I make sure I compliment her on the things she can do and not just how she looks. She is beautiful and smart but she doesn’t think so. That saddens me because I say “look in the mirror” you are gorgeous. I’m always getting complimented on how beautiful she is, especially her eyes. She has the best features of her dad and I.
|Natalie, age 12, Summer 2010|